July 2005

There have been moments in my life i have only shared with my darling S.She has been very close to me, perhaps the only one to know all my secrets.She has always patiently listened to me.Funny moments, sad & depressing moments, my success stories, my emotional outbursts………. the list goes on and on.Never gets tired of me and neither do I of her.
Shar: Hey S got my first job today.It was so easy.Bala sir just casually told me to join the company as soon as I pass out.Thats great!Thats not all.He plans to appoint the professor as a consultant, another Amada design engineer is coming soon and my job will be to coordinate with them in designing a Punch Press.Wow that sounds exciting.I always work better in a team because i have people to fall back on.Lets see how things turn up.I even have plans to continue my project during the semester and hopefully i will get a stipend.Its always great to earn in student life.Can fulfill all my desires of cell phones and other electronics.You already know that i never spend money on clothes, i always look good even in the cheapest of clothes you see:).My mom is always particular about me washing my face reguarly, often comments “eek to cheez achi mili hai use to sambhal kar rakho”.
I am so happy with this offer.I can now sit in campus placement with a peaceful mind.You see i always do better when i have something to fall back on.

Had a great start to the day. Met Bala sir in the morning, but there wasn’t much of a discussion so we planned a meeting tomorrow morning. Then i was just counting the hours to leave finally got pained and left at lunch. Just before leaving opera asked me to meet some profs so as to figure out what exactly was going wrong. I did that. huh he was a stud prof. He was a man of principles .And promised that he wont let me go out of his office unsatisfied. And true to his words he did what ever he could to help with the doubt i had.He has almirahs filled with just books and research papers He was kind enough to give me the print outs of the stuff i needed, but he didn’t give me that Wedge mechanism. He was furious at the company, he blamed them for using me as a link to get information free of charge! I will suggest his name to Bala Sir as a consultant for the company.
Finally she gave me a missed call at around 3:30 but i saw it when i came out at around 4:30.I thought she would have left but still i called to confirm and luckily she was there.It was great hearing someone’s voice after months of chatting. Her voice was very matured for a 20 years old girl but very smart and charming. Well I thought to myself girls mature early…right.
She dominated most of the conversation ok then next time..:)
Watched the last part of As good as it gets. Interesting movie where a very pessimistic old man finally ends up with a very emotional divorced waitress. Charming and truly a class act. The acting reminds of my performance in a skit at school. I finally was able to pull out that actor in me and stunned the whole auditorium with my senti death scene. Even Aruna Luke mam( our chemistry teacher) had few words of appreciation to convey in the class the next day.

Nothing went according to my plans. Yesterday we left early (at 5) but boarded the wrong bus, so had to change and finally reached room at the usual time!Today we planned to leave after lunch but opera told me that Bala sir might be free in the afternoon so i had to wait for him but unfortunately he wasn’t, some people from Japan had come.Then i dropped sambar on my white shirt and finally missed the Proteck bus today while returning.But you see all good and bad things come to an end.In the evening had a good chat with Nishant after a long time.
But the worst of all was the quarrel of Nisheeth with Dum Dum. The day i walked out of the friendship, i never really was concerned about Nisheeth.And why the hell should i have been.His ego always a factor that irked me a lot.He never really listened to me or for that matter of fact anyone.He always had the notion that he is intellectually ahead of everyone so all the people are wrong and only he is right.Basically i got pained with this attitude of him and a similar fundaes of Noemaun, thats why i was trying to avoid their company. These people are a hell to deal with.Always trying to prove that i am inferior to them be it acads or anything they can lay their hands on, me being a bihari or my preferances. They think they are smart!Huh they are idiots who will pay for all these at some point of their life.
Whatever, i have lost all hopes of getting a good friend, atleast in IIT. I was so happy with my school friends.India ke saare namoone yahi aaye hai. I do seriously need that jigree yaar to share my feelings, sit on the sea shore and just talk and keep talking.Few people can claim to be my that close… when i was a kid it was Ayona didi, she was some 4 years senior to me but still we i was very close to her…. then it was my imaginary character ‘S’ ! S can claim to be closest to me(more on S in future posts) ……then there school mates like Anand , Sushant,Rahul Pathak,shwetanshu……. fianally there were DPS mates like Shashank,Murari,Navneet,Nishant…. not so close to them.
No idea what future has in store for me.I always hope for a better future.Lets see.

Another boring sunday.Nothing much to write.Had lunch in the Andhra mess.Etna teeta tha ki aankh aur naak se pani behne laga:).Somehow ate it.In the evening i had dinner with Toto and Kirti.And after that we went to the juice corner in Adyar. I have become so careless these days, now thats something not common to me.I wrote enough yesterday.Today i forgot to call home.
Still there has been no meeting with Bala sir so i need to wait another day.I hope he comes out with something positive and practical.