Ah, I don’t know

I really don’t know what to write today. Something happened few days back that i never expected. I have been waiting, so eagerly, for and when it happened i couldn’t even feel the happiness. I have seen people cry when they are happy but what if you are super-duper happy? what do you then? I felt nothing when she told me those words i have been waiting to hear for long. It just happened and as i alway say thats how life is! You never know what is going to happen next and I love pleasant surprises. I crave for something and when i don’t get it, i feel depressed and lonely. And when i get it, then i feel nothing as if it was normal and expected. I sometimes wonder that the excitement that hope generates cannot match something which is certain. I have developed this opinion based on my experiences for the past 23 years of my life. I always failed to feel the rejuvenation after being initially rejected. I was shattered last year and this happiness for me was inconceivable then!

I can’t even express myself today because i feel so elated that there is nothing coming to my head. I had western classics exams yesterday and I only know how i wrote that. Poetries and I are like step brothers, I rarely understand a poetic piece and so i left the last question unanswered. Can’t write more….

And remember every dog has his day