I feel so lonely today

You know I…..I…..I really don’t know. I feel so lonely today. Nothing has gone right so far and this day has been a total mayhem. I feel so lonely. I had friends whom I trusted and that trust was based on respect but now I have realized that it was one-sided. They never respected me and on the other hand they had serious reservations about me. I think its good to blurt out things rather than keeping them in your heart and situation does just that. People react differently differently to different situations and often people, in fit of rage, blurt out that deep rooted feeling that they have within them. And that’s when you know your true worth. It has happened not once but twice in 24 hours with people I trusted so much. I feel like running away from this virtual world that I have weaved around me, whose realms were decided by me but I think now I have to transgress those boundaries and look for new vistas. Vistas! why? I don’t have anyone to talk to and that’s why I feel so lonely today. But then I feel why should I need anyone to talk…I can handle things on my own. They say I am inept at convincing people, have absolutely no sense of writing and you are pompous. Some say I am morally corrupt and I have absolutely no sense of right and wrong. I am a fickle and a flirt. Well I listened to them without a word from my side but then they were friends whom I respected for what they are. They might be perfect, you know I am agitated and still speaking good of you so now know what’s in my heart, but why do they expect their friends to be the same? I am not and so I am lonely. Now I need to look for imperfect friends who are as bad as me so that I can be comfortable in their company. C’mon the bottomline is that I am a small town dweller who has been mesmerized by this wonderful world of Internet and a metropolitan. I….I…never deserved their friendship…I was happy with my companions who shared the same qualities as I, who have time for me and would never belittle me even if they feel like doing. Its because a successful relationship is based on being equal and also being able to keep things within oneself. And that’s why I feel so lonely today!!

And just when I thought the day has ended, I read this

Lenovo takes their 3000 N100 to Core 2 Duo

While we wait for Apple to get their MacBook act together, a few more Core 2 Duo stragglers are wandering in, and this time it’s Lenovo’s N100 from their 3000 series getting the Merom boost. Beyond the processor goodies, which seem to encompass most of the Intel’s offerings, the N100 boasts of an 802.11n MIMO WiFi option, your choice of a 14.1 or 15.4-inch widescreen LCD, and an option with the 15-inchers for an NVIDIA GeForce Go 7300 card running 64 or 128MB of memory. The 15-inch models also seem to have an option for a built-in webcam, but we’re low on deets. Since Lenovo isn’t telling us any different, we’re guessing the screen res options match up with the previous offerings, along with the rest of the specs. We should be seeing these for sale any day now — they’re listed at the Lenovo site now, but one of the links is broken and some of the specs don’t match — and prices should start around $800.

So they are upgrading my darling huh? This world of technology amazes me. Why can’t i upgrade my hardware? Its just the processor or may be the mother board as well but everything else is the same right? Why can’t Intel come up with something this phenomenal that it becomes easier to just plug in the hardware.

Another news that just took my senses away-

1. People actually apply Iodex on bread and take it a drug!

2. People burn Fevicol and inhale the smoke to get doped!