X and me- II

Continuing on my previous post. What I did in that post was weave my case. Assume many things, be extremely cynical and attribute all evil to X and its friends. Its because I was MAD that day. I wanted to assume things which are anti-me and this further augment my anger towards X. Why? Well so that I can hate X to the utmost degree for what it has done to me. I assumed extreme prowess on the part of X and a victimized mentality on my part. This is what victimized mentality does to your thinking. You tend to assume things which are not at all true. What’s the big deal if I am from a town? I have had quality education, perhaps the best one can afford in India. My education has equipped me with mannerism which I can easily modify according to the society that I live. I might take time to come to terms with certain functioning but then I am in a position to harness it better. Many of my so called city friends are still inept at computer skills, Internet transactions and communication skills required at professional level. In fact I have learnt these things faster than most of my comrades. I was an absolute idiot when it came to computers; I still remember the ordeal I went through during my first year CAD (Computer aided design) classes, I didn’t even know how to copy paste! But now things have changed so much so that I now have my own domain name and also hosted my blog. When I came to IIT I was ignorant of many things in life just because I enjoyed a grand royalty back home. My father might be a central government employee but he enjoys a great social status in the town. We have many things at our disposal, from servants to cars. I was never required to go to a bank or go fetch ration for home or drive my mom to work, just because we have resources at our disposal. Compare this to X………not even remotely close

But I had tough time managing these things when I came to Chennai. But then I had imbibed qualities that easily let me cope up. I was always taught to be open minded and rational in my approach. My family, though from a town, is liberal and free of orthodoxies which X’s family is lying under. We don’t marry off our girls at 19 and fix marriages at the time of birth. I can just go on and on. Is there a point?

See the whole thing is I was just assuming things and thus inciting my passions against X. I sometimes wonder if terrorist and killers also think the same way. I mean those serial killers or this mentality can also be attributed to Hitler. Hitler help the Jews responsible for the sufferings for Germany and was also weaving his agenda on my lines. More on this in the third and last post in this series.

I am no Hitler and neither I have plans to avenge my humiliation. It’s ok if X ditched me. X can be ditched in near future and then it will be evens. Right? I am just hoping for that. I just want X to feel the pain I had gone through and sometimes be sad in live…ah I am again assuming things